In the end of 2020, I decided it was time to put myself first in the upcoming year. Cope with my issues before helping others, do what makes me happy and not follow other people around like a lost puppy. It was time I became a leader instead of a follower. I used to have a very negative '’what if’' attitude but I was able to turn that into a positive "what if". For example, a teacher is asking for the answer in class and I am unsure if I am correct, but I submit it anyways because what if I’m actually right; not what if I’m actually wrong. And if it turns out that I am wrong, it gives me an opportunity to learn and understand what I did incorrectly or am not fully understanding. I also began to let go of people who didn’t give me the positive attributes I feel that friends should give friends. I will not go into detail but I will say many friendships were not equally balanced with effort. After I did this, I noticed an eminence increase in my happiness. I also started working out because I realized that I am never going to get where I want by sitting in bed all day or just not working out. Even if it’s a simple 15 minute leg and ab workout it still makes me feel better and more fulfilled than before. I realized I also want a job and the ability to make an income. With COVID being a critical part of our lives, I am not currently permitted to work in retail or food services so I decided on something that I will actually enjoy, babysitting. I can control the days I work (for the most part), and I get paid fairly well. For it only being January 7th, I think I have made very severe and amazing process so far. The only way we can go from here is up! Happy 2021!!
